Accepting the blank space in life

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#Bible http://j.mp/ibSLwN'>Why Cannot I Follow Thee Now -- Tue January 4, 2011 (Devotional)

I love how deep and yet so simple Onward Chambers is in My Utmost For His Highest. Every once in awhile a passage just strikes me, just like this one did. I feel like my life has been on a bit of autopilot for the past three years with a few challenges here and there. I felt God wanting to move in my life but also that He knew I wasn't ready yet. I kept trying to think of ways to serve through our church but nothing really got me going, until I got a phone call from one of the Deacon's wives. She wanted me to start a ministry where members would donate handmade items to the maternity ward at a low income hospital. My first reaction was that I didn't want to give up my precious knitting time to knit for charity. I was also scoffing at the idea that just because I knit I should be making things for charity. And then I felt a bit convicted and started thinking of ways I could make this ministry work. I figured I could dedicate one night a week to charity knitting. I wouldn't have to work on that project any other time of the week. I also thought it would be great to be in a group of Christian women bonding over a Bible study. I love ky Wednesday knit night but have been wanting to join a small group for awhile and none of the current ones fit my schedule. It was at this point that I sent a message to some ladies in the church to run the idea by them and they loved it. I am hoping that this program will be up and running by the end of this month.

I guess in summary the devotional today struck home because it is hard to sit and wait for what God has next, but what we don't realize sometimes is that God is actually preparing us for something big during those blank spaces.

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2011: Year of Changes

I've been at this point in my life a few times before, where I knew that big changes were coming. I knew when I went from a public to a private school that my life would never be the same, and when I went into high school that life was changing, same with when I moved 2 hours from everything I knew to go to college. The biggest change came when I moved even further from the family I grew up with to live where I am now in hopes of better job opportunities. Whether or not the job opportunities have truly been better is up for debate, but I am definitely happy here.

This year brings a big known change, I will be marrying the love of my life. I am super excited to start building our lives together and starting our own traditions and just figuring out what married life is all about, together. Its that together part that I'm most excited about. What I'm worried about is that we are 70 days away from the actual wedding and we still aren't sure about where we are going to live.

There is the apartment complex which has all the amenities we want, but in a location that means Mr. Badango would have to get a transfer to a different store or else deal with a lot of driving and time away from home. Then we have the apartment complex that is in the right location, but has to go through some major planned renovations to get 99% of the amenities we want, just minus the gym. We also have the possibility of being able to move into a house on the same property where I'm living now, but that is only if my uncle is able to get the permits together to make it happen, and at this point I don't see that happening.

Needless to say I'm a little stressed about all of this. I want a decision made before I go back to work on Tuesday and Mr. Badango isn't quite ready for a decision to be made. I guess it will all work out in the end.

In other news there are definitely moths in my current abode and I will be moving my stash into my trunk or into Mr. Badango's current residence for fear that the stupid moths will do hundreds of dollars worth of damage before I am able to get out of this place. It is rather frustrating to be wearing one of the favorite hats you have knit and then to find three giant holes wear the moths have had a field day.

I guess it wouldn't be a New Years post without some goals for the new year.

1) Relax and enjoy life as it comes
2) Show my body the love and concern it deserves by eating healthier and becoming more active
3) Knit some fingerless gloves so my hands aren't always freezing cold
4) Pick up after myself
5) Enjoy married life when it comes